Category: Do Not Quote Me
Everyone starts somewhere. These posts are from my earlier years — written with confidence that outpaced wisdom. I’ve left them up because deleting them would be dishonest, and because the distance between then and now is kind of the whole point.
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Transcranial Magnetic Stimulation (TMS) Post #14, 15, 16
Day 14, 15, 16:I had such a lousy week and weekend. By the time Monday arrived, I was devoid of creative energy. That’s why this is a combination of three days I missed. Now, I didn’t miss those three days because they were negative. The last three days are the most alive and happy I’ve
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Emotional Captain’s Log – Shitdate Now
I don’t think I’ve ever gotten used to the idea that I’m depressed. I mean, I know I am, but there are times when the symptoms kick up, and you’re facing them at that moment. You can’t see them for what they are. You get so focused and cyclical that you metaphorically destroyed your entire
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Transcranial Magnetic Stimulation (TMS) Post #13
Day 13: I’m not too fond of this week. Hmm, I didn’t realize it was day 13. I’m not typically superstitious, but this day has been some of the funkiest I’ve felt since starting treatment. Not just this day, but this whole week I’ve been fighting with the darkness quite ferociously. The cycles of highs
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Transcranial Magnetic Stimulation (TMS) Post #12
Day 12: This TMS treatment feels like forever. I’ve read three books since I started. Reading really helps distract from the pain. It’s not always enough, but it keeps me focused during the breaks between pulses. Once again, the morning started out with a positive mood. After I’d recovered from the tension of the treatment.
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Transcranial Magnetic Stimulation (TMS) Post #11
Day 11: The Return of the Sine Wave. Day 10 had the unique distinction of breaking the up and down cycle of my mood throughout the day. Day 11 brought it back with a more substantial high and more significant fall than previously recorded. I sit with my feelings and attempt to find causes. Throughout