Day 10: Tuesday. I chose to take Tuesday evening as a day of self-care. I went for a drive, had some excellent Mexican food, and explored some personal interests. These concepts make for a late post, but it is also so important to take care of yourself.
I didn’t experience the sine wave of moods that I had mentioned yesterday, and I stayed on the upper end of the spectrum. How frustratingly inconsistent, I identified and then immediately break the pattern.
The mood wasn’t the only aberration as my pain level increased during treatment and a tension headache followed after. I’m beginning to wonder what this is actually doing to my brain.
Today’s Anthem: Little Shop of Horrors – Mean Green Mother from Outer Space
Today’s Book: Margaret Atwood – morning in the burned house
Pain: How badly did the treatment hurt? Did I have headaches afterward? Other issues?
4/5 – Pain was significant and jarring, very painful during treatment and some tension afterward.
Sleep: How’d I sleep? How many hours? Quality?
3/5 – Sleep remains steadily unimproved.
Appetite: How’d I feel about eating? What did I eat?
4/5 – I was feeling ravenous and yet didn’t eat much. Maybe it’s a lack of bulgogi in my life.
Physical Activity: What did I feel capable of doing? What did I ultimately do? How did I feel afterward?
3/5 – I felt good but was quickly worn out by any physical exertion. I think the repeated doses of Advil is causing something funny with my cardiovascular system. May have to try moving forward without taking it for treatments.
Motivation: How much proactive motivation did I have? What motivated me? What were my goals? Did I hit them?
3/5 – Motivation was okay. I managed to accomplish the tasks I set out to do throughout the day.
Baseline Mood: What am I feeling as a baseline.
AM: 3/5 – I woke up feeling pretty well about myself and my day. I had a slight dip and then rebounded for the evening. Breaking my sine wave idea.
PM: 4/5 – By the time I went to bed, I was exhausted but not for the lack of a great evening. I enjoyed Mexican food, good random conversation, and a bit of fun for the evening.
Happenings: What’s happened today that may impact my baseline?
I went for a drive in the Berkshires, had Mexican Food, made it back in time to get a couple of games in and we actually won. I had some great conversations and really felt like I freed up a section of my mind for a bit.
Reactions: What were my reactions to the happenings?
Learnings: What did I learn, observe, etc.?
“We have priorities, Omar!” – shouted by a drunken woman at her waiter in the Mexican restaurant. I can only imagine those priorities are as follows.
- Thinly veiled racism
- maybe an Ambien